It is the eve of what would have been your first birthday my darling and I wont let myself think about what we would have been doing or what you would be like. I simply know you are in God's presence and waiting for us.

We are all struggling today - reliving Mummy going into hospital anticipating the excitement of meeting you. Tomorrow we are all off work and hoping to walk on the beach in memory of you and then sending little heart shaped pink balloons up in the sky for you. I hope you can see them. I hope you know how much we love you darling. It is just soo hard without you. You are our little girl. I have to stop now as I cant see to type properly. I have tears pouring down my face darling. I love you Nanny xxxxxx